Tarot of the Day.....and my thoughts.

Ten of Wands
The Ten of Wands card suggests that my power today lies in conscience. "He ain't heavy, he's my brother." I own responsibility for the baggage I have chosen to carry but I am ready to lay the weight of a burden or secret I have been hiding behind where it belongs in order to reconcile my conscience. Do I want to be right or alone? I am empowered by blind faith in fulfilling my purpose or greater good to "just do it," and I transform through in passion or direction in principle.

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What is the baggage I carry?
Fear?
What weight is it, really?
Fear of failure. Hmmm.....who am I trying to impress? Who does it matter to if I fail? Is the guilt associated with the failure? Who have I failed? Digging deep to find out, but I don't really know at this moment. I am afraid of being hurt. I am afraid of being vulnerable because that opens me up to pain. Every time. Opening my heart and my soul has only brought pain in the past why would the future be any different?

These are thoughts I know I need to banish because they only manifest themselves into reality.

But can I banish a fear that has been with me so long that I'm not sure how to act without it or exactly from where it stems? What do I need to do to remove the fear and learn to love courageously and fearlessly? I mean, how does one put down a load they don't even realize they're carrying?

But then, maybe I'm just trying too hard and that is the burden. Am I pushing too hard for something that isn't realy meant fof me?

How do the following apply to me and how can I relieve myself or at least learn from them? What lesson am I to learn here?
overextending -
trying to do too much
refusing to say "no"
taking all the blame
assuming another's debt
doing the lion's share
having to work overtime
shouldering all the work
being saddled with an extra load

feeling burdened -
never having time to relax
feeling tied to a treadmill
being taxed to the limit
assuming responsibility
being held accountable
carrying out an unpleasant duty
cleaning up a messy situation
being left holding the bag

struggling -
fighting uphill
doing everything the hard way
experiencing resistance
pushing against the current
having to work for every gain
finding that nothing comes easily
laboring

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I heard some where that if we can't manage to state affirmations because they feel too much like lies, then we should start with questions so that answers will manifest. Well, I think I've asked numerous questions here. Are you listening, Universal Manifesting Machine?

How can I learn to love courageously and fearlessly?
What do I need to do or learn in order to remove the burden I carry?
What steps do I need to take to achieve my highest purpose?
How can I bring more love into my life?
Where do I find the direction to my soul's deepest desires?

I could probably go on with more, but they'll get repetitive.